Forgiveness (Part 1)

Gulped a litre of 100 plus moments ago as I was feeling feverish. A friend said that it would help - it obviously didn't in my case. Instead my stomach is bloated with a gassy feel now :(

I will continue later. No reading as I can't focus. So for now I'd like to leave you with this quote, "To forgive is to be kind to one's self"

Back to The Office

Enjoyed Jean's wedding reception - small and simple yet the photo montage, video presentation, and the food (not to forget) was fantastic.

I am now back at the office, clearing mails. The darn part is there's no air-con on 18th floor, so it's rather warm. The solution - Having 2 fans. One blowing from behind, the other on my right. I guess it'll have to do till 7:00 tomorrow morning.

Reading before I go back to work:-
Why does fate play games with us
We're like 2 magnets with the same point
Whenever we come close to each other
We both push each other back

I never thought loving someone afar
Could be so difficult
Yet I ask myself why
Do I keep on loving you

Worry about you whenever you're sick 
Feel guilty whenever you're lonely
The worst thing of all is
I am not there by your side to care for you

The light from the moon
Bright as ever tonight
Shining down on us
Waiting for us to reunite

Alright time for me to get back to work *yawn*. A little sleepy so probably a quick nap later. Just like old times. May you wake up with a smile in your face, rejuvenated and healed mentally and physically, to take on the week ahead. Good night folks @ 18 WS 014.

Cured

Had a quick afternoon nap. My laptop is now back in action. Ha ha ha. After more than a month, it's finally fixed. Hard disk replaced and software installed. Meeting up mom and dad later and I have a wedding dinner to attend to. After that, I've got to head back to the office to clear some stuff before tomorrow. The good part is - I am going to be out of office for a week! :)

Here are some pictures / videos from yesterday's rally.

Protesters marching towards Dataran Merdeka

Sit down protest

Senior citizen joining

A couple of masked men

Kids being roped in - Do they even know what they are protesting against?

Near Dataran Merdeka

Barricade on one point leading to Dataran Merdeka

Dinner - Birthday boy being asked to perform

Excerpt from today's reading:-

Flowers bloom during spring

Birds chirping and happily flying

This is my feeling when

I am right next to you

It starts to get cold in Autumn

Flowers start to die

And the animals look to hibernate

I feel such whenever

We're far apart

Our spring time will last forever

Because the love that exists between us

Cools off the over burning sun and
Melts even the hardest ice

There's been a lot of uncertain changes in the weather lately - sometimes sunny hot, and sometimes it rains cats and dogs. Folks, do take care of your health, drink ample water, eat ample fruits and vitamins. Stay healthy. My thoughts are with you, wherever you may be. Signing off @ Melati Utama.

Parents Stopping By

Tipsy - that's the condition that I am currently in now while doing this. The day was sort of long, Was up eary, and later joined Ah Kit and the gang for breakfast in Pasar Seni, Headed back to the office for a quick nap later while they were still there. Had some pics and vids from Bersih courtesy of a friend, which I will share tomorrow.

Mom and dad will be arriving tomorrow, but I will probably only meet them later at night or the day after, as I have will be attending Jean's wedding. Am proud and happy for her, that she's finally found 'the one'.

In this state of mind, I still managed to read a few sentences:-

Waking up in the morning
The first thing I see is
That beautiful smile on your face

In the night, getting ready to sleep
The last thing I see is
That beautiful glare in your eyes

Having you by my side
Every day and every night
Is the best gift of my life

I can barely keep my eyes open now. Good night, and sweet dreams. Signing off from Melati Utama Condo

Fine

At my desk at the office now, went for an interview earlier today. I think it was better than the first one, but I guess still had a lot of opportunities. The outcome - will know by 2 weeks. I have mixed feelings about it, but am glad that it is over. Let's just wait and see what comes my way. Anyway, I have a long list of uncleared emails, which I need to come back to clear tomorrow.

And Bersih 3.0 will be happening tomorrow. Been close enough to a tear gas to feel its effect - it's worst than crying over spilt milk :). This was during the first Bersih where me and my friend were at the Masjid Jamek station having a drink while waiting for the protestors to protest and FRU (Federal Reserve Unit) to start arresting. Let's wait and see tomorrow.

Excerpt from today's reading:-

It's not your fault, it's not our fault
We just forgot to take things slow
There were many promises said
But they became empty with time

Sometimes the hardest thing
Can also be the simplest thing
What's not confusing
Can be sometimes confusing

It is cold and sadness dwells
Food for the soul depletes
Yet wanting you to be happy
So calmly tell you everything is fine

Time to get back to work @ 18 WS 014.

Maybe Not

2:25 - Been home for almost an hour now. Thought I'd be craving to lie down on my bed and Zzz, instead I can't seem to sleep, so I thought I'd pen down what happened earlier in the plane. The journey back was indeed an experience to remember.

As we were 20 minutes away from KL, the fasten seat belt sign came on and the normal announcement for everyone to return to their seats etc. Shortly after that, the captain made an announcement to the crew, to be seated as well. About half a minute after that, the plane started to shake terribly - we were going through some bad turbulence. A few people screamed, and that sort of made the situation a little worse. People whom I can see on my left and right started to hold on tight to the in front of them. An Indian woman somewhere behind started to chant. To give you an idea how bad the plane was shaking, think of driving through a hump at 60kmh, and doing it for like 15 minutes consecutively. Worst thing, you can't see what's outside. It was almost like a movie per say.

Anyway, during the time when the turbulence started, my eyes were closed, and all that came to me were flashbacks of the things that happened. Decisions and actions that I have taken which resulted in consequences (may they be good or bad) that I have to be responsible for. Thinking about it now, I reckon these are the aspects that build on the belief system and experience of a person. As I was reminiscing, the bizzare thought came to mind - what if the plane crashed. (I'm not going to talk about what I reminisced). All of a sudden I heard a baby cry, coming from 15F (I was seated at 15B). That immediateled hindered my thoughts away from the plane crashing to, we've got to land there's a lot of people on this plane. So I eventually said a prayer to myself quietly (and I honestly suck at doing this).

Landed at about 00:05 and everyone was in a hurry to disembark. As I was walking towards the exit, I told the stewardess, "Bumpy ride huh". And she said, "Ya lor". I ended the conversation by telling her to thank the captain of the plane for ensuring everyone's safety. She smiled, said she would pass on the message and wished me good night.

I decided to read a bit, hoping that it would make me sleepy :)

Difficult, difficult it is

To lie to you

But maybe this is for the better

Because I do not know what else to do

Walking away from you

Step by step, smiling back

And bidding your farewell

Is the worst thing for me to do

As we catch a final glimpse

Of each other,

I smiled again and waved goodbye

And when I turned away

I broke down with a tear

One that you will never see

Because you will never know

I guess I am going to think myself to sleep today. Ha ha. Peace to all. Signing off @ PV3

See you again

It's been a rather long day - slept at 3:00 and woke up at 5:30, before heading to the gym. It was a little drizzly today so I immediately changed into my gym attire before leaving the hostel (Didn't want a recurrence of the previous incident). Anyway, today I managed to jog from Berlayer Creek all the way to Sentosa Boardwalk, before coming back to the gym for a shower. The scenic view was fantastic. Would definitely jog here again on my next trip.

Excerpt from today's reading:-

Don't know why
Feelings can sometimes be complicated
Is it because it is or
Because we make them to be

Can't we be normal
And have sincere feelings
One that heals the heart
And enriches the soul

When I look into your eyes
I see my future, I see us
What do you see
When you look into mine

Time to leave for dinner and then fly. Signing off from 07-06 (huddle room) @ MBC.

Sands... on the bay

Today was a rather interesting day. When I went to get my building access, two Indian security ladies who were manning the reception said, "We're glad to see a Malaysian". So apparently they live in Johor and commute by bus to work everyday, and the journey take 3 hours! I can't imagine myself doing that everyday, but hey, everyone's got to earn a living. I did 5 kilometres on the treadmill today - it felt good.

Managed to open a DBS account today. Process was rather smooth. Took about +/- an hour to get everything set up, including an atm/debit card and online banking. I then went back to MBC (the AmEx office in Singapore) and again we took the free shuttle (first time on a bus in Singapore) back to Harbourfront for lunch.

Had dinner at Marina Bay Sands, and after that adjourned to the casino for some action. Was up by $300 but then I wanted to have some thrill, so I bet everything I had on me $1300, at a big small game, and lost. The feeling was like, "Uh, I lost, so?" I guess nowadays I like watching people playing more than I do. Fun to see. Ha ha ha.

Excerpt from today's reading:-

Every time I get close to you

And as I am about to tell you

That I love you

I end up taking a step back

This feeling is miserable

Sometime when loving someone

And not being able to tell her

I am lost, I am sorry

Was it the words you said

That pierced through my heart

And that now I am shy

To walk up to you an say

I love you with all my heart

Patiently waiting for the day to come

When our hearts are sealed through a kiss

And two become one

Time and fate will tell if it is meant to be

Until then

These feelings of mine

is nothing more than

a normal voice amongst the crowd

Checking out of the hostel in 4 hours. Going to go take my shower now. Signing off @ Wink Hostel Mosque Street.

Long Day

 The view from where I saw in the plane, 21A, at 6:45

Slept at 00:00 and woke up at 3:00. Hopped on the cab at 4:00 and reached the airport at 5:00. Boarded the plane at 6:00 and arrived here at 7:00. Dumped my bag at the hostel at 8:00 and reached the office at almost 9:00. Worked till 19:30 and had dinner at 20:00. Finished at 21:00 and got back to the hostel at 21:30. Checked in and showered, and now it's 22:30.

I had spaghetti carbonara for dinner, and a big thank you to my colleague (and also probably my best friend that screws me upside down once in a while) for dinner. Overall, I had a fun-filled day and I look forward to tomorrow.

Excerpt from today's reading:-

Seeing you in a person

Is like watching a dream come true

Never thought that

Something so beautiful ever exist

You are most beautiful when

You are your plain self

The smile on your face

The look in your eyes

When will the day come

For this fate of mine

To see you in person

Will it come true?

I wish for those with hopes of changing their destinies, will come true to them. Patience, perseverance will see you through :) Signing off @ Wink Hostel in Singapore

Travel Status

I can't go home now as it's raining cats and dogs outside. In another less than 11 hours I am going to be in a foreign country. Work, and probably some leisure time (I hope?) Training tomorrow and Wednesday and then back again on Thursday.

Here's what my daily horoscope says:-

Your past mistakes can help you to create tomorrow's success - but only if you can face them boldly. Today's mental energy helps you do just that, so make sure you're rummaging through old baggage

This thing about horoscopes (whether or not they're true is another story altogether) I think, is that they're somehow there to provide us motivation, especially in times when we're lost, and that can sometimes be very dangerous if interpreted in a negative way.

Excerpt from today's reading:-

Today is a rainy day
Tomorrow may be a stormy day
The weather is unpredictable
And it describes you

One moment you're there
The next you're not
Thinking of you is joy
And there is never burden

I wonder why
But I always hope for a sunny day
Maybe it will come
May it will not
Only time will tell

It looks like it has stopped raining heavily, I can see motorcycles on the streets. Time for me to go. Wishing strength to those who are tired and courage to those who are weak. Signing off @ 18 WS 014

Back in Town

Had to came back to work to finish some stuff that's due tomorrow. Done now :). Here are some pictures that I took from yesterday and today @ KL and mostlyMalacca.

The best Hainan tea and Roti Bakar in town @ Imbi Pasar, KL

Cendol @ Donal & Lily (nearby out hotel) before we checked in

Hotel lobby

An alternate source of income when hotel occupancy is low? Swiflets!

Some historic building in front of the hotel

Jetty @ Portuguese Settlement

Dish # 1 - Clams

Dish # 2 - Hairy clams

Dish # 3 - Baked fish

Dish # 4 - Fried sotong

Dish # 5 - Prawns

Dish # 6 - Crabs

Today's lunch - Crepe cake @ Nadeje. Famous in Malacca

A very concentrated mango juice mixed with sour plum. Nice ~

Pork satay

Souvenirs for Singapore team members and colleagues. I am going to have a heavy load this Tuesday ;)

Excerpt from today's reading:-

Trying very hard to forget you
Only causes me to think of you more
Do not understand why
Fell for you in the first place

Sleepless nights
Thinking of you
Wishing that you were here
Give me warmth and courage

It is now 19:54 - Gotta run and meet my brother and retrieve my Ezylink card.

A Day Out of Town

 We all need some time out, at a certain point

I'm in Malacca today :). Been doing nothing much but eat the whole day! There goes 2 weeks of early morning jogs. Earlier today when I woke up, and was on my way to meet Jason and the rest (supposedly at 9:30), I somehow remembered something important I hadn't done. So I whatsapp'ed Jason at 9:15:-

Me: Dude, I just remembered that I had something important to do. Will be slightly late.

Jason: How long?

Me: +/- 15 minutes, I forgot to 'unload' earlier today, so I am currently in the toilet in KLCC

Jason: Me too, I also haven't unload today

Ha ha ha... 

Unable to post any pictures now. Will do so tomorrow when I am back in town.

Today's excerpt from my reading:-

Sitting by the beach

Admiring the waves

Thought of you came

Together with your grace

What a fool I've been

To hide my feelings

And never did I

Had the chance to confess

"I love you"

Today we're strangers to each other

Maybe it is

Fate which brought us together

Maybe it is

Ignorance that separates us

Wishing upon a shooting star

That grace will once again appear

And may I wield the courage to say

"I love you" 

23:40 and everyone's probably had their shower - time for me to have mine. Signing off from the lobby @ Hotel Puri, Malacca. May calmness and serenity be with those who are in need of them :)

Fixed?

My old hard disk - RIP

I paid RM144 to see a mere 5 minute show - The technician opening my laptop, and replacing my old hard disk with a new one. The only problem now is that the Windows 7 installer has been static (apparently finalizing the installation) for over 2 hours now?

It's 22:00 Friday, but somehow it seems like it is going to be another weekday for me tomorrow, especially with a pile of work not done yet. Oh well, no point to fret about it now.

Excerpt from today's reading:-

Where you are right now

I can't see, feel nor touch you

Want you to know

I will be there for you

When you need a shoulder

To cry out your suffering

I will lend you mine

And be your pillar

When you need a pillow

To give you comfort

I will be yours

To cushion and give you faith

It is now 22:05, signing off from where I am at, 18 WS 014. LOL. Peace be with those who are in search of it :)

Responsibility

Continuation from The Rescue: About Kyle's dad, his name is Brett Cosgrove an investment banker who was in town for a few weeks working. They hooked up at a party. One thing led to another and they ended sleeping together. Soon after Brett left back to New York, Denise found that she had already conceived Kyle. She called Brett, who offered to pay for the abortion - as Denise is a Catholic she couldn't. Brett's already engaged to another person at that time.

As I read through 5 pages today (I am a slow reader - I'd imagine the scenario as I read. Makes it all seem real) the only word I could think of was "responsibility". Are we man / woman enough to step up and be responsible for our actions?

Today's excerpt:

Lying beside you
Watching you in your sleep
I hear you breathing
Gently like the calm wind

The sound of your voice
Brings comfort to me
The touch of your hand
Heals my deepest wounds

Loving someone and being loved
Is like an elixir
To all forms of sickness

It's 21:01 now... Signing off from 18 WS 014. Good night, and may peace come to those who are in need.

Short

20:45. Location: 18th floor Menara Weld. Yes I am still at the office. Called Dell yesterday. Yes! Getting a new hard disk for my laptop on Friday :) The cost RM594. Freakin expensive :(

Hopefully the stress will find its way out and leisure time kicks in :)

Back to work ~

Pai Seh

Because of a great love, one is courageous ~ Lao Tzu


A bizarre thing happened to me last night - I lost my dignity? Ha ha ha. I left the office around 20:00 to the gym for a quick workout. Everything went well until I finished my workout and wanted to go for a steam bath. The towel would normally be wrapped around, slightly above the naval. And in the steam room, the towel is low, below waist level just nicely covering. The purpose is of course to get more heat.

As I was walking towards the steam room, while adjusting down my towel, another person walked out the shower, and for some reason I got a shock. Now when this happened, my hand slipped and the towel fell. I froze for a split second, so did the person in front of me. As I was pulling up my towel, I said "sorry sorry" then quickly went into the steam room. Pai Seh!!! Here's an illustration of what happened (I ain't a good artist so use your imagination. LOL)

An embarrassing moment...

Excerpt of what I've read last night:-

Eight years ago today,
We said our goodbyes
You were going far away
You said, it's for our future

The airport seems crowded
Everyday until today
Waiting at the arrival hall
I long to see you

Going home feeling downhearted
There was no sign of you
Wondering where you may be
My heart misses you so

I understand
The day you said goodbye
You meant it to be forever
Why did you go what did I do
The love we had, where has it gone
Until I see you again

Happy Birthday

Coffee-mate.. Yummy! I enjoy eating it... Just like that

Feeling sleepy today - Monday blues? Nah, probably because I woke up at 3:00 and couldn't sleep since. Both my legs hurt. Most likely due to yesterday's run without a warm up. Silly me. What a way to start the week. A week from now I will be out of office for 2 weeks (technically 1 because I am working off site the first week).

Today is mummy's 64th birthday. Called her this morning to wish her Happy Birthday. At the same time I asked if she got 'kena Toto' or not. She said last week she won 3rd prize - good! She still plays occasionally nowadays, old habits die hard :)

Excerpt from today's reading:-

Sitting by the gentle stream
Staring into its reflection
I see you crying, or is it me


I remember the days
Where our hearts beat as one
We supported each other
Through good and bad times


You cried asking me to leave
Telling me this won't work
Your tears of sadness
Is like a thousand knives
Piercing through my heart


I cannot see you like this
I know that we are two worlds apart
Letting you go seems to be the right

Why is it so, I still hang on
Hoping for a miracle
That you would one day return
Once again our heart
Beating as one

Fate

Read another 7 pages of "The Rescue" in the train this morning. Kyle seems to be a healthy boy - only that he's 4 years old, and the doctor diagnosed him with CAPD (central auditory processing disorder). In layman terms, he can't speak at an appropriate language for his age. Kyle's been brought to several doctors over the past 2 years, and misdiagnosed over and over again.

A sentence read "fate is strange, fate is unpredictable", This is true, isn't it. One minute, you're on top of the world, the next minute you're down in the gutter. But because it is strange and unpredictable, that people strive hard to change their fate. Truth is, we do all we can, until our fate is revealed.

Breakfast - the best tosai telur and vegetarian mutton in town. Found only at Lebuh Ampang :)

Coupons - Wonder what games will they have on that day

Today is the first day of spring
Birds happily chirping
Flowers beautifully blooming
This is the day!

At the end rainbow is a pot of gold
One that nourishes the heart
And bring love to those who are lost
Finding it is difficult
But once found, it will stay forever

Running towards the light
Slowly appearing from beyond
I see my pot of gold - that pot is you
The joy that you bring to me
It now feels like spring everyday

PC Fair

At the center of your being you have the answer; you know who you are and you know what you want. ~ Lao Tzu

Sigh... Internet is down now so I am using my phone as a hot spot to post today. Went to PC fair with Darren and my brother today. I wanted to look for a SSD hard disk for my laptop. Surprisingly couldn't find any. Brother was busy taking photos. Here's some of the pictures he took...

After roaming around PC fair for an hour or so, we headed over to Low Yat to buy the SSD. Passed Pavilion and saw a fleet of Ferraris on display (probably some sort of Ferrari club event). A lot of them were from Singapore.

So I managed to buy the SSD. The disappointing part was that, the shop was not able to install it as they were not sure how to open the laptop casing (Dell must have thought of all this so they made sure they sealed it, and in order to change it their customers needed to go back... How smart of Dell!). In the end, I had to get a refund. Calling Dell on Monday to get this fixed.

Went back to KLCC after lunch, Darren and me decided to watch Battleship, and so we parted ways with my brother who went home. I slept a little bit through the movie (was a little tired), but overall it was okay.

Excerpt from today's reading:-

The streets are crowded with people

Yet my heart seems to be empty

I am looking for someone - that someone is you

Can't seem to find you amidst the people

I wonder where could you be

This happens when you're not around

The sky is cloudy and it is crying

Representing my tears of miss and sorrow

I hope I can see you again soon

The first time we met, is the most beautiful moment

You Jump, I Jump

2 days ago, a colleague was nearly robbed at the parking area in front of the Shell Gas Station on Raja Chulan. Luckily she locked her car the moment she got in. The robber, covered with a mask, was at the door when she locked it. She kept honking, and he eventually ran away. Another colleague who was working shift finished at 22:00 last night, parked at the same spot (unfortunately for us parking space is scarce in KL).  So, since I was at the office, I offered to accompany her there - sort of escort services eh! LOL

People were queuing up for tickets, as the 1997 movie makes its return in 3D onto cinema screens worldwide last week. I remember the time when I watched "Titanic" back then - It was a pirated VCD which I bought for RM15 in FP. I was at my aunt's place using her computer to watch the movie, together with my friend. The scene which we liked the most was the part where Rose posed for Jack to sketch (what can I say, we were 13 back then with raging hormones... Ha ha ha)

I couldn't watched the 3D-dubbed version because I get dizzy whenever I watch 3D movies. But what seemed tinkle in my thoughts were the words, "You Jump, I Jump" I reckon most people can relate to the movie through these words...(copyright imdb.com)

Jack: Rose, you're no picnic, all right? You're a spoiled little brat, even, but under that, you're the most amazingly, astounding, wonderful girl, woman that I've ever known...

Rose: Jack, I...

Jack: No, let me try and get this out. You're ama- I'm not an idiot, I know how the world works. I've got ten bucks in my pocket, I have no-nothing to offer you and I know that. I understand. But I'm too involved now. You jump, I jump remember? I can't turn away without knowing you'll be all right... That's all that I want.

Rose: Well, I'm fine... I'll be fine... really.

Jack: Really? I don't think so. They've got you trapped, Rose. And you're gonna die if you don't break free. Maybe not right away because you're strong but... sooner or later that fire that I love about you, Rose... that fire's gonna burn out...

Rose: It's not up to you to save me, Jack.

Jack: You're right... only you can do that.

I think it's about falling in love - to the other person and taking a leap of faith, for him/her not knowing what lies ahead. It's about commitment - staying true to one another. It's about choice - the receiver choosing whether or not to receive wtih gratitute, what the giver is giving with sincerity.

Love is of all passions the strongest, for it attacks simultaneously the head, the heart and the senses ~ Lao Tzu

The Rescue

Yay! I managed to get up at 4:00 just now, and did a little exercise. Felt much better after that. Got into work at 7ish, and had my 'usual breakfast' at 9. The next  thing I need to do is clean my desk as it's a mess now! Yes, I do have issues with getting things organized sometime.

Decided to shop for a book last night, so I went ahead to Kinokuniya in KLCC after leaving the office at 20:00. Was browsing for Nicholas Sparks' books for about half an hour, and finally bought "The Rescue". Not really a fan of love novels (heck I don't even read that much ;p), but the thing about Sparks' publications - the moment pick it up and start reading, you'll be glued onto it till the last page. The novels that he's written (according to critics) serves as a reminder for women of the man they with their boyfriends would be, and for men, an inspiration of what a woman looks for in an ideal boyfriend?

Here's an excerpt from the back of the book:-

Can you fight your way into love?

A brush with tragedy pushes Denise to the brink. She is pulled back by dashing fireman, Taylor - but how far will he be prepared to go for her when it really counts?

As Taylor helps Denise recover from the shock of her son's disappearance, their chemistry becomes undeniable. They are a perfect fit, but just as she lets herself relax, she realises it is too good to be true - Taylor simply cannot open his heart to her.

As his conflicting desires throw Denise's emotions painfully awry, she begins to regret gambling the balance she has created with her son, Taylor has to decide: draw back or dive in. Can he open himself to Denise's love and giver her the happiness they both so crave?

I've read up to page 7 so far (this is going to be my 'in the train, on the way home, to do item) and the story starts with Denise and her son, Kyle on their way home, avoiding an upcoming storm. Kyle is 4 years old, and it looks like Denise is a single parent.

Exhausted

Yeah! Got my Hilton card yesterday :)

I feel extremely tired today - got home at 2:00 this morning, and I had to discover that PPS is now available on Android, so that added on another 1 hour of movie time (watched a bit of Ghost Protocol) before I decided to sleep. Didn't even hear the alarm rang this morning. Luckily I woke up just in time. Work place is rather cold as they aren't many people around today - public holiday in Malaysia (new King installation day).

Was going through today's horoscope and this is what it said about us Aquarians:-

"You are more connected than you may realize, and you should do what you can to maintain that network. Your great social energy is perfect for building bridges and for helping friends find each other."

To somewhat extent I guess this is true?

And the story continues...

Excerpt:-
I think of you, but I do not know how to translate these feelings into words - It is extremely hard to express love in its truest form. Instead I end up falling head over heels, trying not to look like a fool, but eventually I do. How can I tell you, you mean the world to me...

Soulless

Woke up at 4:00 again this morning, but this time feeling very tired. Must have been the 1-litre watermelon juice I had last night, and the red bean jelly milk tea at Chatime. Word of advice - don't mix your drinks! Kaw Kaw Burger came out in the papers (http://thestar.com.my/news/story.asp?file=/2012/4/10/nation/11076423&sec=nation#13340365579406989&if_height=182) but we weren't featured unfortunately ;p

Decided to do a little reading before bedtime last night. Dozed off soon after.

Excerpt:-

I am empty inside... soulless. There isn't a day that passes by without the thought of you. I remember how it all started, till the very day you asked me to leave. If this was a test, I'd failed horribly. I feel incomplete without your presence. Is this what they call "Love"? I took a leap of fate, when I decided to fall in love with you. I do not know if you've reciprocated. Two people, from different worlds apart - what was I thinking back then? Wherever you are, I hope good things come your way. From a distance, I will be happy for you. I now wear a mask, waiting at the very spot where we first met, knowing that you're no longer there but still, hoping, for a miracle you will once again appear, saying, "Hi".

A Walk to Remember

Tried waking up for a jog earlier today but I could not resist the temptation to sleep longer, so I snoozed all the way till 6... Ha ha ha. Work's been rather hectic so far - normal for a Monday, plus the fact that we were closed on Friday.

A few years back, a colleague sort of introduced me to this movie "The Notebook". It was through her, that I knew who Nicholas Sparks was. A Walk to Remember (or rather A Historical Event for me) was the very first novel that I actually finished reading.

It's one of those 'love story' novels, where this boy falls in love to a girl he never expected he would, they get together, During the relationshipn he finds out that she's diagnosed with leukemia (terminal stage), he starts fulfilling all her wishes, they get married,  she dies, and he lives on as a 'miracle' she hopes to see. Pretty good story. Reminds me of a quote from the book "Our love is like the wind... I can’t see it, but I sure can feel it".

Back to work - it's cloudy outside and I feel a heavy downpour coming...

P.S. 妳對我有多重要

Burger

I've been consistently blogging for almost a month now, describing (as many as possible) what happens in my daily life. The amount of posts I've written in these 2 months is now equivalent to the amount of posts that I've written in 2 years. What seemed to have started out as a 'homework' has now become a daily routine. Don't think it's being followed now but still, I like to think of this as a homework for me :)

A colleague messaged earlier, asking if I wanted the love letter biscuits she bought sometime earlier (really delicious... better than the Julie's ones you see in Malaysia supermarket), as she was out shopping with her mom. So she bought a 800g one for me (must be very big!).

Darren, my brother and me decided to try the 'kaw kaw burger' on Friday. As my brother lived nearby the stall, we coaxed him into queuing up earlier at about 17:45 (thanks Nick!). Darren and me arrived about 18:00 and we sat down together with my brother. This is the first time I've actually queued 2 hours for food! We were also interviewed by a reporter who was in the area at that time.

Here are some pictures:-

The queue at 18:00. There were like another 30 people behind of us

The menu. We ordered 2 single set, 1 double set, and 1 tower set. The cost... RM67

Cooking

Cooking

A display of his culinary skills. With the publicity they've been receiving, I told them they were now more famous than the local actors :)

And here's a short video of how the burgers were cooked

P.S. 在我腦海裏, 你的身影, 揮散不去 ~ Extracted from 情非得已